carved angel

ugh. not in a good mood right now... for one thing, i fucking hate my hair. it will not take dye anymore. at all. i just tried bleaching it again, and some of the roots took a bit, but are the wrong color, and the rest of it is this really dull blonde/brown color that has been there for ages and won't go the fuck away. on top of that, my latest hair cut was cute for about a month, and has been looking worse and worse, and now i look so white trash it isn't even funny. :cry:

on top of that, as far as school goes, there's good news and bad news. bad news is that there are only two classes available for me to take next semester. so it'll be taking me longer than a year to finish my degree. the good news is that since i can only take two classes in the fall, it's only costing $1500. oh, wait, i can't even pay for that, so i guess that's not really good either. :pissed: bloody hell. i will be trying to apply for financial aid this week, but the deadline for florida was may 15th, a few days before i even got accepted to school. i'm going to go ahead and fill stuff out anyway and maybe i can get some kind of loan. and, yes, i am searching for work, since i'll only be going to school part time.

in other news, i went to see star wars on saturday. we were pretty much out all day, coz we hung out in st. pete for a while. while there are bits of the latest movies i don't like, i did enjoy this last one. yoda had one speech in particular that was very buddhist (i'm supposed to say dharma instead of buddhist, but would i then say that his speech was "dharmic?" is that a word?), and chris and i spent some time after the movie discussing love as desire and how it leads to suffering, etc. neat.

but i'll have to cut this entry short coz i feel icky. :sick: more later, maybe.