carved angel

i just can't sleep at night anymore...

anyway, i was thinking about going back to the south beach diet, phase one next week, so i went to the forum i used to frequent for recipe ideas. i poked around a bit to see what the ladies were up to, and was disappointed to see that so many had been gaining. even the ones who are so strict about their eating. which served to remind me that, as tempting as it is, diets don't work. even ones that seem nutritionally sound. my weight has been creeping back up, which always freaks me out, but i know that if i go back to phase one, i'll lose eight pounds in about a week, but it'll be back with reinforcements. i would love to drop that much weight so fast, but i know from experience that it won't stay that way. i really just need to eat less. and get off my ass and exercise. that's all there is to it, i guess. i wish i had some self-control... i don't even mind being so overweight, but once i get past a certain point, it really upsets me.

all is not terrible, however. i'll be getting some (free!) bratz dolls in the mail this week, from an incredibly kind stranger. also, i practiced stuff for my driver's test, and didn't do too badly. i think i really might pull it off. :happy: shadow will still be restricting where i can go, but just being able to go to the store and the library will be awesome. i can't imagine driving by myself. oh, and chris says there's no written portion to the test - when he took it, anyway - so that's one less thing to worry about. (there is a written portion, dammit.)

i have to say, though, i'm a bit worried about what driving will do to my weight... easy access to such evils as the grocery store bakery and taco bell may be my downfall. until shadow cancels my bank card, anyway. :blush: