carved angel

gah, my stomach's been a bit off again, lately. despite this, i will be playing trophy wife again at one of sohei's work events, this evening. (i am obviously joking about the trophy wife thing.) i wonder, occasionally, whether i'm supposed to take my lip ring out for certain things. i know i have to take it out for job interviews, and i took it out when i had to meet with the homeowner's association. but i don't take it out for sohei's work gatherings, and i didn't take it out for mum's funeral. in fact, at the funeral, i had chipped black nail polish, a lip ring, bright red hair, and a coat lined with leopard-print fur. i didn't really care at the time, but sometimes i have to wonder what all those people that didn't know me, must have thought. i still don't really care. but they must have thought me odd. (i'm relatively certain that anyone living where mum was buried, that saw me, must have thought me odd, in general.) but mum was cool with me by the time she died, so it bothers me little.

okay, it's 2 a.m. now. thought i'd update about the outing before i continue my post. we went out to eat with some people from his department, in honor of one of them retiring. i love his co-workers. the man who's retiring, and his wife, got their undergrad degrees in english lit, and masters in library science, like me! and the guy sitting next to me said he knows someone important in the hillsborough library system, so i might have an in. between uncle mike's friend in the usf library system, and the guy chris' co-worker knows, i may have a shot at a job. in hillsborough county. :lol: well, that's what i'm getting my license for, ne? i always heard all this stuff about networking, but didn't think it would ever apply to me, since i don't know anyone. guess i was wrong. :happy: anyway, as usual, i had a bit much to drink, without really meaning to. so i tried not to talk too much or smile excessively. coz i look quite silly when i'm tipsy. but everything was nice, and i wish i saw more of everyone, like when sohei first started working there.

anyway, i didn't really end up talking about my birthday. coz it was a busy day. and i've just been busy in general. but it was awesome. sohei's mum, pam, came over, and gave me this cute kimono picture thing, coz she said it reminded her of my wedding kimono. it did look very much like it. i think i'll hang it in the bedroom, which is where my kimono is hanging, over my bed. and we went for lunch, and i got a wrap and some fruit and it was yum-o. then we went to the museum, and all the meiji stuff was so cool. and there was this actual photo of a guy committing seppuku. (a grainy copy of the very same pic can be seen in the wiki article below.) and there were these two old women marveling at it, and wondering aloud who the guy with the sword was that was standing behind the suicide guy. so sohei and i explained - at length - the seppuku process, and about the second. and i blathered on about the last seppuku. but they were actually interested, so it was okay. and we saw the monets that mum had loved so much when we went to the museum with her. (that museum has so many memories for me... sohei and i went there on a field trip when we very first started dating. and we took mum there for mother's day the year she died. and so on.) and we saw these pictures blake did of the book of job. sohei wants to name our son blake, coz william blake is so cool, but i think the name sounds a little preppy. (sorry if your name is blake. i hope we have a girl.)

so it was a really nice day. and tonight was nice, too. i actually seem to miss mum more when things are going well. i always find myself wanting to tell her everything. and if you wished me a happy birthday, thanks. :blush: i promise to catch up with my email soon.