carved angel

currently watching: videos on vh1. then food network, coz they started repeating the damned videos.

i've discovered the thingy on blogger that allows you to put the same thing in each post. formatting. thingy. you know. that's what that is, up there.

and the thing is, i'm not too into that many people. but they're all flawed. i mean, everyone is flawed. but i think liking musicians, mostly, has a lot to do with that. what a strange lot of people they are. for the most part. and my latest sex interest is jim marcus of die warzau coz he's really, really smart, as well as talented and hot. as far as i can tell, he's not a junkie, like al and ogre or ohgr or kevin or whatever. but i do think he's a sex fiend. which is okay, as far as flaws go, i guess. it seems like we're all addicted to something. though sex can kill, too. but i don't know that he's a sex fiend. what with not knowing him personally. but i suspect that may be the case. or he's just really funny, on top of being all those other things. (and i still don't believe he's actually into goats. i know that was a joke, fuckers.)

i do think it's good i met sohei so young. coz if left to my own devices nowadays, i'd prolly end up with a kiddie fiddler or serial killer or something equally terrible. my taste in people sucks that way. i seem to have gotten lucky, though. not that sohei isn't flawed, but he isn't a junkie or sex fiend. or kiddie fiddler or serial killer.

just really cranky or whatever.

all i consciously like is skinny boys with big, brown eyes that can work the eyeliner. (i only got sohei to wear liner, like, once. i think he was prolly incredibly high, but who knows? not me.) oh, and they have to be really smart, and literary, and musically talented, and not ashamed of going to museums and liking it. but they can't brag about liking museums, coz that's just snobby, and i hate that. (no bragging at all, actually, please.) you can be smart all you like, but don't be an ass about it. and being nice to my family is important, as well as liking your own. i used to have mum-related specific rules, but i'm not going to dwell on it. and being sensitive and compassionate is important, too. you can be sensitive without being a pussy, and if you don't think that's possible, then you're an idiot and there's no hope for you. in regards to me, anyway. fuck you. and, in this vein, a buddhist outlook is a plus. like zen/mahayana. laid back, pacifist, enlightened, etc. and, call me boring, but monogamy is a must. (sorry, jim.) i may be old-fashioned, but nothing turns me off more than being given an std. (i'm assuming.) so don't be a slut. cheating isn't on, sorry. and you just get the one strike. besides, good luck keeping up with me. you don't need to look elsewhere. :wink: and while i can put up with some artistic dysfunction, i don't think i can handle anything too hardcore. i.e. drug addiction, violent behavior, sexual weirdness, etc. (and, by that, i mean animals, children, poo, or whatever other outright bizarre things some strange fellow may be interested in.) and respect. there must be respect. i suppose all of this goes for a girl, too, but i prefer some curves and a booty on her, rather than the very skinny i like in guys.

now i'm just getting incoherent, if i wasn't already. but my point is, in the huge list of things i want in people, nowhere does major dysfunction appear. i suppose that's what comes of getting all hot over rock stars...