carved angel
6.9.05
steps
not a lot to update about, really. i'm dieting again. (yes, i know. shut up.) and though it's my first day, i totally cheated already. meh. but thanks to my little binge-fest, there're no more sweets in the house. i think i'll do a lot better tomorrow...
i talked to dad today, and his girlfriend is moving in with him this week. with her 15 year old son. that should be interesting. :shocked: i hope this works out for him. he lived through two daughters, though, so a stepson shouldn't be too terrible. right? i wonder if they'll get married. and how soon. i hope she's nice. i hope she wants us all to be a real family. no one can replace mum, and i don't expect her to, but i want to at least be friends with her. i really, really want to meet her. i've just been kind of assuming she's a sweet person, coz she seems like it, according to dad. but of course he thinks so. i just don't want to end up feeling cut off from dad. and i don't want her or her son to feel like they don't belong when juchan and i are around. i have a feeling i'll be really relieved when i finally meet her. i'm still excited for dad. and i'm glad he's not alone anymore. i won't feel like i have to worry quite as much. ya know? i guess i'm just really surprised by everything. it was less than a month ago that dad was asking my permission to date again, and now his girlfriend is moving in with him. i'm not lying or in denial when i say i'm happy for him. i am. in fact, i'm kind of excited about all this. i just hope it all turns out well, i guess. my parents were married for nearly 30 years, so i've never experienced the whole step-family thing. :confused: a lot of people i know didn't have very good experiences with theirs. but then, their situations were different than mine. and, if i don't like her for some reason, at least i don't have to live in the same house as her. besides, it seems like most problems stem from step-fathers. except like in cinderella, i guess.
anyway, i'm totally rambling now, and if sohei catches me out of bed, i'm doomed. :cry:
i talked to dad today, and his girlfriend is moving in with him this week. with her 15 year old son. that should be interesting. :shocked: i hope this works out for him. he lived through two daughters, though, so a stepson shouldn't be too terrible. right? i wonder if they'll get married. and how soon. i hope she's nice. i hope she wants us all to be a real family. no one can replace mum, and i don't expect her to, but i want to at least be friends with her. i really, really want to meet her. i've just been kind of assuming she's a sweet person, coz she seems like it, according to dad. but of course he thinks so. i just don't want to end up feeling cut off from dad. and i don't want her or her son to feel like they don't belong when juchan and i are around. i have a feeling i'll be really relieved when i finally meet her. i'm still excited for dad. and i'm glad he's not alone anymore. i won't feel like i have to worry quite as much. ya know? i guess i'm just really surprised by everything. it was less than a month ago that dad was asking my permission to date again, and now his girlfriend is moving in with him. i'm not lying or in denial when i say i'm happy for him. i am. in fact, i'm kind of excited about all this. i just hope it all turns out well, i guess. my parents were married for nearly 30 years, so i've never experienced the whole step-family thing. :confused: a lot of people i know didn't have very good experiences with theirs. but then, their situations were different than mine. and, if i don't like her for some reason, at least i don't have to live in the same house as her. besides, it seems like most problems stem from step-fathers. except like in cinderella, i guess.
anyway, i'm totally rambling now, and if sohei catches me out of bed, i'm doomed. :cry:
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